Woohoo it's pay day!! Or not? :S

So here is a snippet of my weekly timesheet in my current position as a healthcare professional (Pharmacy Technician). 

I fill it in eagerly every week ! 

Why? Because without it, all the hours I put in at work bear no fruit. 

How will I pay my rent? 

How will I put food on the table? 

How will I afford my shopping sprees? :D 

Generally, I work 7.5 hours a day, 9am-515pm 37.5 hours a week. And at the end of each week, my manager signs me off, having seen me work these hours. 

And that is how I get paid. 

Similarly I was thinking - when I fill out my sadhana chart - I have to be honest and open every day, about:

How many rounds have I chanted?

What time did I wake up?

What time did I go to sleep?

How much time have I spent reading Srila Prabhupada's books?

How much time have I spent hearing Srila Prabhupada's classes?

How much time have I spent doing services?

How much time have I spent attending KC programmes and classes?

I can't cheat myself or others, just like can't cheat my manager. He is at work and he sees what I am up to. 

Similarly, the Supersoul is there 24/7 and His empowered devotees - the spiritual master and the Vaishnavas also see me - my spiritual practices, external actions and more importantly sense my internal moods, motivations and intentions. 

The Sadhana Chart is my spiritual timesheet as my ultimate occupation is that: I am an eternal servant of Krishna. 

Śrī Caitanya Caritāmṛta Madhya 20.108

jīvera 'svarūpa' haya — kṛṣṇera 'nitya-dāsa'

"It is the living entity's constitutional position to be an eternal servant of Kṛṣṇa." 

If I do not go to work and hand a blank timesheet to my manager, and I cry, "Why did I not get paid this week???" - I have no one to blame but myself. 

No pain, no gain. 

We get out of anything what we put into it. 

Enthusiastically performing my spiritual practices - externally and internally, is how I can access the wages of mercy from Krishna and His devotees. 

Therefore The Sadhana Chart is not a formality, or just a "tick-box" exercise. It is my open and honest offering of love: "Dearest guru, Krishna and Vaishnavas. Here is my sadhana chart for your pleasure. For the good activities I say: Just see what I have done by your mercy...and for my shortcomings...please forgive me and help me to become a better servant."